This month I want to share with you a little different monthly goals list because it’s funny how much life can change in a year. The timing of it is kinda perfect too, as this week is mental health awareness week.
A couple of days ago I was looking back through old posts of mine and came across last Mays’s goals. It was such a great coincidence but it was also very painful for me to re-read. A year ago, I was severely struggling with my mental health. Battling a depression and anxiety I had never experienced before. I only had one goal in May 2016. My goal was to be happy. Reading that old post reminded me that sometimes we take happiness for granted. In my blissful state of life now I had almost forgotten the days where getting out of bed seemed like such a chore I started dreading it the day before. Happiness does not come easy to some, and even though life on the outside may see perfect, doesn’t mean life on the inside. I had never struggled with being happy or content before and I think that above anything hit me like a ton of bricks. When you are that low, it’s difficult to remember that it’s perfectly ok not to constantly be happy. You are allowed to not be a beaming ray of sunshine 24 fucking 7.
It was also last year I really started to see mental health awareness becoming a key discussion point on social media, and I noticed more and more blogs were popping up sharing people’s struggles and casting light on issues that were almost tabu before. Perhaps this is because I was seeking it out more, looking, or longing for support. Desperate to find somebody I could relate to without having to share too much of my own situation. Depression is funny like that Or perhaps it’s because is was 2016 and about time we recognize that mental health is equally as important as physical health. If not more!
Although I no longer struggle with depression and anxiety, I still think ‘being happy’ should always be on your goal list, however big or small that one moment of happiness is. It’s also important to talk to somebody if you feel things just don’t seem ok. Sometimes just sitting in silence also helps. Whatever it is you are feeling, remember you are not alone.
This May, like last I am only gonna have one goal. The same goal. This May, my goal is to be happy 🙂
oh oh and maybe get my foot fixed…
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