I think May is my favourite month. Well besides December, and maybe February… The sun is usually shining, birds are singing, people are so happy winter is finally over, my social calendar is usually booming and ALL THE FLOWERS!!! This May Im a little sad though, its the first year for probably 5 years I won’t be flying home to Bergen to celebrate the 17th of May and my little brother’s birthday. He turns 13 this year. It’s difficult for me to comprehend that its gone so quick. He was just born yesterday! As I get older, I feel time is just going quicker and quicker. How am I 28? I swear I turned 18 yesterday, but then again it also feels like a life time ago. Who even was that person? Like how is it Wednesday? I was enjoying the sunshine, drinking Pimms and catching up with my favourite people just yesterday no? Oh wait no that was 3 days ago. I spent the rest of the weekend in bed with a migraine. Think my body went into vitamin D shock. The good thing about laying in a dark room with a cold compress on your face is that it gives you some very much forced time to think. I thought a lot about my May Goals. Usually I would be writing a list right now over goals I want to achieve this month. I’ve decided not to. I am trying to learn how to not put so much pressure on myself. It probably sounds ridiculous, but it’s a very common problem, specially in women. Personally I have a tendency to set very high goals for myself, with unreasonable expectations. Usually what happens it that I don’t reach my goals, and I start heading into a mental downward spiral, feeling like a constant failure and all around not being good enough. My anxiety picks up, the amount of panic attacks I have increase and I can’t function as a person. The fear of failure is always pressing, and I need to learn how to accept that its ok being me, and that I dont have to try and be anything more.
So for May month I have ONE goal,
- Be happy
What are your goals for the month?